Sometimes I wonder if I'm scared of the act of v* or just scared of the general crappy illness feeling that comes with it. Because I associate v* with having a sv which is horrible even without the sick I think that the main reason I fear I'm gonna v* is because if I do it means i'm ill. Make sense to anyone?
I mainly thought this because last year i drank far too much one night and felt so nauseous the next day and I knew I was going to throw up, and I wasn't scared and didn't really mind because I knew that once I was sick it would be over