It happened to me finally. I have emetophobia reallly bad and anxiety. I have gerd as well. So I burp constantly and it scares me. So my fear is like being afraid of heights and working on a skyscraper. My burps happen constantly throughout the day. But back to my story. A few weeks ago I felt like throwing up all day, which is normal for me since I always feel sick. Every day I have a stomach ache. I hadn't thrown up in ten years bt everyday I feel like it could be the day. So this day was no different. I felt bad all day. ALSO, THIS IS GOING TO BE GRAPHIC, SO DON'T READ THIS IF YOU ARE VERY SENSITIVE. I went home and worried. Drank pepto bismol. I tried to fall asleep. I slept for about an hour. Then I woke up, and knew something was different so I went to the bathroom and tried to pee or just sit there or something. Then I randomly gagged. And I freaked out and cried and held onto the door. I paced in circles and gagged again. Something told me, just put your face to the toilet. I had never done it before, but I tried. I was shaking, crying and I had the chills. I gagged again and I felt it come up. I thought, well this is it. But my fear is so strong, I kept swallowing involuntarily. After about thirty minutes of this nasty feeling. I got up the courage to try to stick my finger down my throat. Because this feeling was so bad, at this point I would do anything to make it go away. Believe me, I had never gained the courage to try. My fear is so bad I think about it everyday but I thought "if I don't try this, and I go to bed without throwing up, my fear will go through the roof." So I stuck my finger dow my throat and threw up. For about five seconds I threw up. And let me tell you thid, as a major emetophobic, and I even had anorexia due to this fear (not eating because I thought id throw up). IT WAS NOT THAT BAD. It is the fear and extreme nausea that scares us. Throwing up was not that bad, and I had a smile on my face afterwards. I told everyone that would listen that I had finally done it, and I felt way better. My fear is still present, although it has changed. Now my fear is that I will throw up whenever I'm around people. I'm not scared to do it, but I am scared to do it in front of people. I'm not sure if I will have time to get away and do it, or if I will be aware of my feeling. It isn't bad and I hope people read this. I am still in recovery and therapy. :-) good luck everyone.