Good on you sadbanana! I'm really glad I could inspire you in some way and hopefully make you a little more hopeful about recovering. You've suffered for a very long time, and I'm so sorry about that. But atleast you can consider this the right time and place for you to finally have the life that you might feel you've been missing out on. If I can be of help or just someone to talk to, please to hesitate to message me. I really hope that you can pull through. It is possible, no matter how long you've been suffering. Keep up the fantastic work!