Last night I had not one, but two dreams thatI had lung cancer and was more scared of the chemo side effects than of the cancer. I remember thinking at one point that I'd woken up and dreaming that I was trying to talk myself out of feeling the way I felt, but it was still part of the dream. I then woke up, snuggled my baby (who'd been in my bed) and went back to sleep, only to have another variation on the dream. In the dream, when I was ready to go to chemo, I started sobbing about how scared I was. When I finally woke up this morning, I felt resolved that this fear can no longer run my brain the way it has been for the past month. I was doing fine for a long time but post-partum has not been great for me, especially at this time of year. If, g-d forbid, I ever do get cancer, I need to be able to face treatment and do whatever I have to do to get better because I have two small children depending on me and I can't let emetophobia literally ruin my life.
Make sense? Any thoughts?
<font size=\"4\"><font color=MAGENTA><font face=\"Times New Roman, Times, serif\">It can, and does, get better with time.</font></font></font>