Thank you SO MUCH!!! I am the same way as you, just in a downward spiral, I feel like I'm drowning but I can't come up for air. I'm so depressed that I think, "If I didn't have my kids I'd just kill myself." Your post has given me hope. I just barely started seeing someone about this fear and I am praying I have the same outcome as you. I just want it under control. When she asked me what I hope to get out of our sessions I told her "I just want to be able to manage my fear, no one likes V-ing, and of course everyone gets anxious when it does happen. I just want go be able to live my life when I'm not." It's 8am where I am right now and I went to bed at 5. That is how horrible this fear is. I don't sleep, Like ever. I run off of two or three hours a day because I'm afraid of nighttime. The last time I had a horrible case of V I woke up in the middle of the night so now I'm scared of it.