Aww lilwng, I can't even imagine. It must be so hard.
I decided I'd like to sleep somewhere else tonight, in the middle of the bush, in a tent. It's freezing and raining tonight (my favourite weather for camping) and I haven't been camping in way too long. It would preferably be somewhere where there are a lot of possums and in the morning, I'd wake up, it would have stopped raining and there would be kookaburras in the trees and rosellas <3 I so wish!!