I’m Back

[mitch4133]

Hi everyone, I am feeling so much better! I am still in a bit of pain, but I am able to walk now! Thanks everyone for all of your support and prayers, it really as helped me. I just wanted to share the experience I had with almost v*. I was so close to almost v* from the anesthesia. I actually felt really nausous for the first time in a long time. It is such a different feeling from anxiety. I don't know if it was all the drugs, or what, but I can honestly say I really wasn't that scared. And I can say, that I still am feeling the same way today (and no I am not doped upon on any pain medications) *Graphic* It was really weird, I was soooo sick to my stomach, and everytime I moved my head, v* was rising and I was gaging, I had nothing in my stomach to get sick on so I never did v*, but I wasn't that scared. I was more concered about pain then v*. I really felt like if I am going to v* then it is just going to happen nothing I can do about it. I remained calm and just took deep breaths, and it went away. I was so proud of myself. I didn't get upset at all through this whole surgery! I never cried or freaked out once. I told the dr about my fear, and they did what they could. I was nervous about the surgery, but I did not freak out at all. I just kept telling myself what is going to happen will happen and there is nothing I can do. And it worked. I remained more calm then I have ever been. And I am so proud and happy with myself. I feel like my life has changed in a small way, like I can accomplish anything!


My boyfriend actually has been super nice to me. That doesn't make me like him anymore, and I refuse to change my mind about wanting to leave when I am better. I am just happy that he has really been helping me, and took a couple of days off work to take care of me. It was nice, but it doesn't make up for the things he does behind my back.


I am really going to concentrate on recorvering. Once that happens, I will be able to find a job and look foward to starting my life again! I am so happy that I got through this surgery and so proud that I did calmly. Thanks again for all of your support!


Michele

[abbey_normal]

So glad to hear you are doing better.....and that you made it through everything ok!!!


Now start focusing on getting better and getting back out there!!

[juliet]

That'sgotta be ahuge, huge step for your emetophobia. Congrats!


What kind of surgery was it?

[mitch4133]

I had a obstruction in my left kidney, and the had to go in and cut the obstruction out. Its a birth defect called UPJ

[juliet]

Ouch...[img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]


I've heard that abdominal surgery is much more likely to cause nausea than otherkinds of surgery are, just because your abdominal organs get jostled around so much. I didn't get at all nauseated from my leg surgery even after two anda half hours under general anesthesia.