thank you everyone. it seems like everywhere i look people are pregnant or having babies. i have decided that im getting a tubal ligation. i dont think i want to go through something like that again. im only 30 but i have three kids so i do have a blessed large family. its just disheartening to know i wont ever have another baby.
@ 3littlebirds, its funny you should say that, I always had a spot for Plath in my heart. When i was in the mental ward my roomate was receiving EST, of course its come a long way since Plath's time;BUT the aftermath was very hard to see. anyway, when this happened to me i kind of retreated back into depression mode for a few days and i thought how lovely it would be to take a nap with my head in the oven! of course i would never do that to my family, but it was a lovely thought while it lasted.