It does help especially finding this place and just knowing I'm not alone. I don't really have anyone close who could help me unfortunately. My hubby takes over when he's home just bc he knows I'm all but useless, but he doesnt understand being all consumed with a fear, and I guess it would be hard to understand if you don't have a phobia. I've explained to him panic attacks, but I guess it's just not the same as talking to someone who actually has them.

I'm feeling a little better now, mostly bc he's resting and not moaning anymore. If we can get through the night we will be fine. He can watch tv in his room all day and he will be awake and aware...the worst time for him is when he's sleeping bc he will do it and not even notice. That's when my panic is the worst.