Wow...Im so sorry that happened to u honey, and feel bad for your son being ill =/ i hope he feels better soon. and if u makes U feel any better, i act the same kind of crazy when my kids get sick. i dont use profanity lol but i DO go insane like a mad woman. they are used to me being 'a lil weird' but im pretty sure some of the things i do freak them out sometimes too! and ur completely right- we handle everything in the world when it comes down to it..i think we're allowed to have the off moments when it comes to our one biggest fear! but dont let it stress u out tooo much if u can help it. take care of ur baby