I think that if you were to get a stomach virus and were to v* on your own, w/out the medication, i think you would feel a little better about the experience. The fact that you took this stuff, you knew it would make you sick, the anxiety leading up to the actual moment was way more worse then if you simply got sick "naturally". I commend you on your bravery and the desire to conquer this disease. I hope you recover quickly from this experience, so that you can move on and put it behind you. Keep us posted.