Has it become a "normal" way of thinking for you? I sometimes find myself surprised (if I happen to make some offhand comment to someone) that everyone doesn't think like me! I guess I assume everyone spends each waking moment thinking of how to keep themselves and their family healthy - just like I do! I'd love to wake up and not be consumed with it ... just one day of relief would be nice! I'm sorry to hear your child was sick. Did you have help caring for him/her? I can't advise you on the meds; it's a personal decision we each need to make. It definitely can't hurt to try them for a few months, anyway. It may give you a chance to gain some strength and confidence. Keep your chin up ...