Wow, you are truly brave an courageous. When stuck in the emetophobic rut of thinking, it's quite hard to will oneself out of it! It's one thing to experience panic attacks from the catastrophic thinking, but sometimes we have to rise above the terror in order to diminish it. Baby steps, I guess. And with time, improvement. I think your post is what a lot of us really needed to hear, and it was also quite encouraging. So... kudos!