Minniesmom, Welcome - this place has offered me much comfort while I deal with daily fear! Even though most of us feel that our bouts with SV are traumatic, it seems that yours was legitimately traumatic! This phobia was much easier to deal with before having kids. I have a 6 and 4 year old and feel as if I am not enjoying the best time of my life with them because I am so afraid that they will become sick. I too just cleaned my house with bleach - smells great! I don't think your behavior is much different than mine! I don't mind staying home, but then again, I get depressed from not going out - does that make any sense? Anyways, welcome!