I was half an hour late! Maybe I was sabotaging myself. Because I left so much time to get there. This gets me thinking of how much my phobia is part of me and protected me from the world for so long. It maybe a fear of mine to let the phobia go.
Anyway I think my Dr is great. She listens. She researched into Emetophobia. She gave me a unique questionnaire to complete to specify me degree of phobia. It seems I'm not as bothered about vomiting as I am about others vomiting. She says that is slightly easier to treat. I haven't vomited in 32 years I think I'm immune. Obviously it's a reflex so I'm not. The next thing was to list my history with vomit. I identified a few cases when I wasn't afraid. That's good. But mostly I'm an anxious mess worried about someone vomiting and getting really angry about it too.
She made a chart of time versus anxiety. I always escape at the beginning so I never found out if my emotions would get worse and worse as I believe. She says it would be physically impossible and eventually the adrenaline would fade out. My way of coping has been avoidance which in turn has made it worse because I never see what would happen if I stay. I just think the only option is to escape or avoid altogether.

She printed out a list of negatives around my relationship and family as a result of the phobia. She also gave me a mood diary to keep for a week. I'm going to make sure I do it. I'm feeling hopeful that I can be free of this. The exposure part isn't quite so bad. My year old vomited in our bed the other night and I was fine. I got crazy later worried everyone in the house would get sick too. I'm starting to see how irrational that is.