I can totally relate to your story, I am currently overcoming emet, and making great progress. Like you I no longer fear v*, it is just the thought of having a sv* and feeling ill that I don't want, and I would feel completely the same if I were ill for any other reason, like having a bad dose of flu. after all no one enjoys being unwell, and yes its a pain if it stops you getting on with something you enjoy. but its no more than an inconvenience. Since starting medication last September my life has totally turned around after having emet and generalised anxiety since the age of 7 years, I thought I would never get to this point. Anxiety no longer rules my life and like you said don't let fear/anxiety control you, you need to take control of the anxiety instead.