Scared only when n*

[punchbuggy]

Am I the only one that is only afraid when I am nauseated? I feel like being sick is no big deal when I don't feel nauseous or think I feel nauseous. I think to myself it prob not that big of a deal anyways. Then when I have anxiety induced nausea or nausea I'm a wreck. I wonder if it's not actually vomitting I fear but the feeling of nausea/ feelings associated with vomitting. I honestly believe if there were no feeling associated with it I would be fine.....now to find a way !

[Kaikey]

I honestly think the n* is what makes us scared; the whole feeling before hand. Of course v* sucks but for me, the feeling is horrible and once it's done, it wasn't so bad but still, I'm scared.

[punchbuggy]

Kaikey - see that what I think too! I haven't been sick in about 19 yrs so I totally forget what it feels like and it creates such fear for me. By the sound of your response it seems you remember the way it feels. I have a strong suspicion that what I have created in my mind is so much worse then what it really is. Would you say that when you were sick it was a heck of a lot less scary then u imagined it to be?

Oner - totally a fear of the unknown for me

[KimberlyP]

I think my emet roots from a fear of choking. When I was youger my mom was screaming in my face to swallow a huge pill. It was my first time ever doing it so between my fear and her screaming at me I started hyperventilating and I choked, Then I v. I think my fear totally comes from the possibilty of choking and not being able to breathe, not so much the N, as awful as it is

[punchbuggy]

KimberlyP - you kno now that you mention it I totally can relate because I have issues surrounding coughing and vomitting. I had coughed really hard the last time I vomited when I was little and I didn't even realise it bothered me until my therapist pointed it put to me when I was really bothered by a paragraph I read in exposure where it stated someone coughed very hard then been sick. She asked me if I know why the coughing bothered me and I had no clue. She then reminded me about my childhood experience I had described to her

[crd08]

Sometimes I think about it and I think "Oh, it's probably not THAT bad. It doesn't last forever, etc" But usually thinking about it makes me feel nervous. Just like you, it's been a looong time, so I have no idea what it is like. And the second my stomach does anything, I get panicky and feel sick

[xocsyxo]

Oh my god, this is exactly me. This past monday, i woke up at 3:30am with n*. I started to shake and couldnt stop and was crying because i was so scared but when i dont feel n* im like oh its not that bad. And i too believe that it is the n* that scares me and not the v*

[punchbuggy]

For those who are scared only when Nauseous of you think you wouldn't be scared if it were sudden with no nausea? I really feel I would have no issue

[SUM1]

The ONLY reason I get scared when I'm nauseous is the fear that I'll be sick. If I was told that I could feel as nauseous as was possible, but could never be sick even if I jumped and rolled around when I was nauseous, I'd be fine with that. It's only really the being sick that scares me. The nausea only scares me because it's an indication of being sick.

[punchbuggy]

Sum1 - wow that's interesting to me! I just hate the feeling of nausea I find it to be too overwhelming in a scary way

[Mamafear]

It's so interesting learning about what aspect of the whole experience effects you all. I am scared of v at night time and not making it to a receptacle but I am absolutely parylized with fear when someone says they feel sicky.. I don.t understand why, but the last 3 times one of the children have been sick, a feeling of "phew, now s/he got it, s/he won't get it again, it is relief I think. It kind of feels like I'm expecting a visitor I'm scared of and hearing the knock on the door and thinking, "well at least I don't need to worry for for a while. Now only three kids to go". It's so stupid because I see now that I 'expect' them to get sick. Hope that makes sense!