I felt that way when I was first pregnant too. Your not a bad person or a bad mom. Remember you have a ton of hormones running through you right now that can mess with your emotions big time. The good new is morning sickness usually goes away at 12 weeks. Your almost there! Have you asked your doctor about getting something for the n*? I took zofran during mine and it helped a lot. Try and keep food in your stomach at all times when your not asleep, even if it is just crackers or bread. You are not alone even though it seems like it right now. You will feel more positive towards the baby once this passes trust me I have been there twice.