Hello, I'm about 7 weeks pregnant and have suffered with emetophobia for as long as I can remember. I'm miserable. I'm not happy or joyful about having a life growing inside me. Yesterday I had my first sonogram and got to see the heart beat of my tiny baby and still all I can think about is this first trimester to be over. My "morning" sickness had been manageable...but last night I vomited for the first time in at least 15 years. I haven't been able to sleep since then...I felt empowered and "better" a few seconds after vomiting but that quickly went away and turned into me fearing it'll happen again. I only vomited up water last night and I'm convinced if I vomit again it'll be MUCH worse than what I experienced last night and that's terrifying me. I should be at work now but I had to call off due to not sleeping and the slightest feeling of nausea or even the feeling of needed to burp is sending me into a panic. I should be thankful I'm not feeling nauseated all day, because like I mentioned, my nausea has been pretty manageable...but I feel like because I vomited last night my morning sickness is only going to get worse and worse and worse and the second half of my first trimester is going to be me vomiting constantly, feeling nauseous constantly, missing tons of work, and wanting to die. I'm feeling completely defeated. I feel like I never should of gotten pregnant, that this was a huge mistake, and that I'm a failure of a woman because I don't feel strong enough to get through this pregnancy.