I haven't had those shots but I too had preemie babies. My first was 23 weeks and my second 25. I can relate to the feeling of guilt that if I had done something differently, my precious boys wouldn't have gone through what they went through. My oldest son was in the NICU for five months and my youngest for seven months. It was terrible so I think it's wonderful you're putting your phobia on the back burner for the health of your baby. I had my boys early because of preeclampsia. The medication they put you on makes you feel like crap (to me it felt almost exactly like noro) and with my youngest son I was a crying,blubbering fool getting it the second time. I knew how that medication would make me feel, so I refused it for hours. Finally I caved when they said that if I had a seizure, I'd make it but my baby definitely wouldn't. So I commend you for being so brave!! I wish I had your bravery when I went though that.