Congrats hun, sounds as though you're making big steps! It's a great feeling when you nail one video, the first one I got through last week at first seemed so horrifying I cried for an hour leading up to actually watching it, then it only took a handful of watches to bring my anxiety right down. I've still got a long way to go - I've discovered I have the biggest problem with watching people do 'it' in a toilet, whereas the more graphic 'Jackass' style stuff seems to be a lot easier for me to deal with... not sure why this is yet!