Haven't been on in a while, so update on a triumph and a really stupid panic attack.

[jadeshine]

I'll keep this short because I'm super exhausted because yesterday I found out I'm moving from Dallas to Houston and it pretty much all happened in about six hours, but I have a triumph to share, and then a panic attack I had that was probably the worst I've had in a while.

Some of you may know about my girlfriends stomach problems from previous posts. Well, the other night it got BAD. Really bad. We went to the ER and I held a v* bag in front of her face while she got sick and wiped her mouth and her forehead and handled it pretty well. I did ask two doctors if the noro rates were going down and both said they didn't know. I almost had a panic attack when she was v*ing once, and it lasted about thirty seconds, but I snapped myself out of it because I knew I had to be there for her. It helped knowing that she didn't have anything contagious, but I did wash my hands and sanitize in the room about 10 times.

Now, for my panic attack. It happened yesterday. I guess I was stressed from the sudden trip down to Houston, because my girlfriend and I went to Whole Foods for some groceries and I REALLY just wanted some ciabatta roles. The Whole Foods in Dallas usually has them prepackaged, but the one we were at only had then out in a self serve type display. I walked up first and asked a worker if there were any fresh ones and he said no, so I almost got one of the ones that were out, and then I started to think of all the people that had touched them and I started pacing around the store, coming back to the bread over and over and fighting with myself over whether or not I wanted to risk it, and I ended up bursting in tears and having to leave the store. I was pretty disappointed in myself, but I'm going to blame it on stress.

I hope everyone has been well, I've got a lot of posts to catch up on!

[daffodil]

I'm sorry your girlfriend wasn't feeling well, but it sounds like you did a great job being supportive. Good for you! I understand about the breads in those self-serve displays. I don't usually buy from those. It seems really unsanitary to me with people coughing and sneezing all over the place and touching the breads. It's a bummer, though, because that's where they put a lot of the good stuff.

[LaurenCasey]

Wow! A huge well done to you for dealing with that. That is fantastic!! You should be SO proud of yourself and your triumph completely outweighs your panic attack. We all have setbacks now and then so don't beat yourself up about it what you did for your friend was such a kind thing to do and something that not many emets would be able to deal with. You're extremely brave and strong and I take my hat off to you

[Tonster]

Wow go you! well done! totally dont worry about the panic be kind on yourself. It sounds like you weren't panicking over your emit and v* - more that you were sad it was controlling you and darn it you wanted bread! let yourself know you will allow time in your new town to scope out things like prepacked bread, and other things you like. Some people prefer raisin bread, you prefer prepacked.

[Erica1649]

Great job for helping with your gf. I could not do that. Don't fell totally discouraged about the rolls. Theres always next time.