I used to be the same, laying in bed waiting. I decided to 'treat myself' one day at the store. I bought a movie that I've longed to see and a cute fleece blanket. I wont let myself watch the movie or use the blanket and have set it aside for 'when it happens'. That was a few years ago. I know that I have those two 'fun' items if/when it ever happens. Not sure why, but it's done the trick. I've done the same for my son, unfortunately we've watched a few of the movies that we bought him! Knowing that I have a plan and something to look forward to helped me to sleep easy - odd but true! It's also helped me to relax when caring for a sickie boy.