I know that feeling, funnily enough I actually just had a sort of anxiety attack (or stress attack) over something unrelated to emet and I tried to drink some water, I had it in my mouth but I was so tense I couldn't swallow it, I had to spit it out and I felt like I might v*. It's normal to lose your appetite when your anxious or feeling down though, I sometimes have to force myself to eat, although if I make something light and tasty it's not too bad. Eventually, with time, you'll feel normal again. Me for example, a few years ago I was just anxious all the time but with time, things came along and distracted me and I guess you begin to just open up a bit. That's different to letting your guard down of course I'm sure that you'll feel better eventually, talking about this problem was how I first started to get better (still a long way to go though).

Well it depends on how long the food is cooked for, the bacteria doesn't automatically get killed at high temperatures, it still takes time to kill it. Although with things like milk they treat it with very high temperatures to kill of the bacteria. I'm not an expert on that sort of thing though.

You said it right there "I will never stop having good hygiene", and as long as you don't, whether your scared of getting ill or not, you won't get ill any more frequently

Thanks for the friend request by the way