I undersand completely! I often feel that I miss out on enjoying the moment because I am so anxious about someone being ill. For me it's not about me v*, I actually am not anxious about that at all, but my kids. I am sick of it and am scheduled to get some counseling this summer, perhaps you could do the same? NYC is SUCH a great place and thankfully it will be summer, so the chance of anyone being sick is small to begin with, the chances with you actually coming down with anything are nil. Would it make you feel better to take some anti-emeds with you to make you feel protected? You could always ask your doc. about doing that. I had some with me on a recent trip to make me feel safe (along with a can of Lysol and bleach spray - OY!). I often find that my anxiety is can easily roll out of control when I am away from home, but do try to funnel that energy into excitement rather than anxiety. Your trip will be fantastic and will SURELY NOT include v*!