well I went and it ended up being a pretty eh time anyway. managed to not freak out too much, though i ended up leaving the room because there were too many people and one of them- literally right before we went to sleep- mentioned they werent feeling well. :I loads of other reasons too probably. but I was proud I did pretty okay

oh but now the person I laid face-to-face with for a good two hours (and the only one i really hung out with) said they've been feeling crampy and stuff all weekend. GREAT. Im more mad than anything right now, so I'm going to hold on to that so I don't turn into a wreck.

Safe to say, I overestimated how "great" they were for different reasons and probably won't be offering to hang or taking them up on their offers for a while.

But i went, so I'm proud of that. (I even used the public washrooms and went to a packed dancing area!)