Well I was fine with v* i vaguely remember being fine with it till an experience wtih what I think I assumed was food poisning but coulve been an sv.

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wEll I v'd so darn much with that it was awful and i recall how awful it was! I v'd absolutely everywhere. I felt no relief from the v'ing. Mayb that scared me of it. I remember the day after the incident too at least I think it was the same incident, I felt so ill I didn't want to move. In typing that it does soud like it was a particularly bad ilness assume thats where i ctually developed emet and nobody figured what was wrong with me. I had emet then how some here have it now i remember id sleep with a tub beside my bed like an icecream container or something because i was so scared itd happen again and i wouldnt eat properly then. i probably wanted reassured what happened to me was probaly just some virus(yeah,the way i should think of it)! but i did not speak to anyone about it and was socialy anxious. think was socally anxious regarding v before that though actually.
any other v incidence must have been so insignificant in developing this fear that ive blocked them out cos that one was the worse!