Thank you for responding so quickly. I'm just really having a rough time with my break up an being alone. I've always had a problem with being alone. And recently in the past year afraid of being away from my boyfriend in case something were to happen. He was my ultimate comfort zone and he's gone now so how can I do this on my own? Either way, I have to, but I really want it to just go away and leave me alone forever. The fear is honestly ridiculous, I know that, but there isn't anything I can do about it. The reason for the fear is dumb but the actual fear is real and now that I don't have my baby is the most horrible thing I can imagine. He was obviously a false sense of security because whatever's gonna happen will, but its the fact that my fear is based upon irrational thoughts, not rational ones, therefore I deal as if I really need my boyfriend to survive, to be healthy and not be sick.