You're post somewhat comforted me. I feel the same exact way. I'm 18 and am going to college online. I've been homeschooled my whole life and I'm pretty much scared of everything. I've never had any "normal" experiences in my life. No sleepovers, no parties, no trips, nothing. It's even hard for me to be around my boyfriend. Please, please, don't let emet run your life. You will regret it, I promise you that. I know I do. *Hugs*