And of course now I am "naseous" which I know is from my nerves but it doesnt make me feel any better. I sometimes almost wish I would just V* (exposure therapy) just to get it over with because i know eventually one of these days it will happen and i will survive... Even just typing that tho was scary i hate being so scared of something so human/natural. Im always just laying here thinking thinking and thinking.. I dont know how to tell my brain enough is enough already! need support!