Very good and encouraging posts everyone! Yes, I have felt all these feelings before as well. I am now 43 and am just really realizing that anxiety, and this phobia, is something I will have to live with. As long as I can keep it under control (because as you can see it can spiral very quickly)...I do this through medication, therapy, and an understanding family. But I am a constant worrier and it gets really difficult and I get down on myself a lot. Life is hard, and I give anyone who is happy most of the time A LOT of credit.

Definitely go to a therapist, get some meds, anything to make it easier to live with.

And also check in with your doc, who will hopefully refer you to someone. Be honest with them!! I have lost a lot of weight in the past cuz of this and will always be underweight. Don't let that get to far as well. Sorry if I'm rambling, best of luck and keep us posted.