Okay so I've had this phobia before the incident so just a heads up. Before probably like 3 or 4 years ago maybe more I was very sick mentally because of my emet. It had been at its highest and it just so happened that it was the fourth July and I was fine the whole day up until fireworks and for some reason I started to get very nervous and anxious and wanted to leave because I was just scared and my mom and brother said no so I waited forever and I got this pain in my stomach because I was crying so hard and was so scared I'd throw up. Later that night when I worked myself up so badly I actually p***d and ever since then I have been terrified of the Fourth of July. Whenever it comes my day is filled with anxiety. I can't seem to overcome it and since I had my boyfriend of a year to help me last year get through it I was okay but now that we're actually recently broken up I feel very alone and scared and just unprotected I guess.. I just feel like ill get sick this fourth because I did a long time ago. I know it's irrational but that's what our fear is all about.. A fear of ourselves basically. I just need someone to tell me I WILL be okay. It almost 6 a.m and its all I've been thinking about for days.. It's so dumb how I'm scared of it. Please someone just help me