I used to think I want to never v again and that's all I want.
But now I've come to the point where I cant stand those daily n and panic attacks anymore. I WANT to recover and eat again and not be constantly anxious. And eat out and bake myself a cake and be abke to look at v and think of it without panic and n!
I'll go to a psychiatry and hope I get the spot tomorrow. Maybe others should think of it! They're professionals all around you. Life will get better.