Random thoughts about fear of vomiting in public.

[bluebell242]

I came to the conclusion, my emet is partly emet in general(tho not so bad) and a fear of vomiting in public, but I actually do not have a fear of vomiting in public because even if it was to happen I dont think there's a high chance of it happening, and if it did I'm pretty sure I'd be able to cope and get myself sorted, get to a toilet, etc.



So why does it bother me so much to have to do it in my home where my family can hear me?I really do not understand! I guess it would even be hard for a psychiatrist to understand that it feels like! Because clearly I don't have worries about it in public, just about where my own family can hear or see, so my phobia may be somehow linked to them? and issues about that rather than general emet.



I also claim I could cope (at least much better) if I was, for example on an island by myself just to v*! So I don't really have a fear of it but it doesnt explain how i clearly have suffered with emet generally too!
can anyone shed some light? how come im probably the only one like this? deep psychological issues lol?

if it helps, ive never actually v*d where ive had support from anyone, so im not sure what people do to support someone who is sick even tho that sounds strange! i imagine if someone was to support me it would be nice in that situation, but also that when i feel n* i cant bear it people near me!

[cpetro]

I have this too. If I ever do get sick, I want it to be in my own home, with no one around...except maybe my mom or someone on the phone after/before to help calm my thoughts.

I went to a hypnotherapist once who made me go back to the very first (and only time) I v*d (when I was 5) and it made me realize that because my mom and stepdad freaked out (about staining the carpet) I thought they were mad at "me". When I was five I had the irrational thought that my parents didn't like me anymore because I was sick. I realize now that this was silly and that it was just the carpet they were worried about. I think this is the ENTIRE reason for my fear. I didn't realize why they were freaking out. I really wish they never had because the actual "act of v*ing" never even scared me at all at the time....it was the reaction from my parents afterwards that caused my fear.

I am now totally scared to be sick in front of anyone (or on my own) mostly because I don't want to look/feel "stupid" because I'm all scared and panicky. I don't want people to see my fear, or laugh at me, or be "grossed out" by me.

Maybe your initial fear was similar???? Think about it
C

[bluebell242]

My initial fear, well same as you I don't think at the time I was bothered about the actual v* because I just felt very ill and wanted to sleep.
Im sure mine is linked to social phobia. I did not want to tell anyone I was ill (i can't think why but when I was told to go and tell my dad which I would be if I was ill I was always scared to in case he didn't care, because he didn't care and he wouldn't comfort me, so I became scared to tell him when I was ill, or maybe scared to even be ill?) so for some reason illness somehow became part of this? I've never been comfortable with people knowing that I'm unwell, unless I think they would be able to deal with it. Maybe I knew my family couldn't(lots of issues of their own), but could that really be it with me? Kids need reassurance when v* I guess? I know that's something I tried to deal with myself but couldn't. Well I obviously got through it by myself but the fear that instilled in me after was awful.
I think it was also something that was there even before that initial trigger incident (which was I guess a sv*). I had another incident I remember before this where I acted similar about the v* but did not become phobic. :S Odd.

[shawlin218]

I am very much like this. I'm pretty sure most of my fear is centered around being in public and the thought of it happening in public. For my anxiety to go down in public, I have to be outside. So, I don't know.. if I was at home, or if I was alone, I don't think I would have near the anxiety about actually being sick. If hubby was with me, that would be okay too. But nobody else. Mine is definitely more of the social aspect of it. Other people v* doesn't even really bother me a whole lot, it's just me. My hubby knows all about my fear and he is my biggest supporter. When he is offering me kind words and support, I feel a lot better.

So pretty much the summary of my rambling is that my fear is completely public centered. More of the social aspect. And probably goes back to some sort of psychological issue and I'm probably not afraid of the actual action?