I am very much like this. I'm pretty sure most of my fear is centered around being in public and the thought of it happening in public. For my anxiety to go down in public, I have to be outside. So, I don't know.. if I was at home, or if I was alone, I don't think I would have near the anxiety about actually being sick. If hubby was with me, that would be okay too. But nobody else. Mine is definitely more of the social aspect of it. Other people v* doesn't even really bother me a whole lot, it's just me. My hubby knows all about my fear and he is my biggest supporter. When he is offering me kind words and support, I feel a lot better.

So pretty much the summary of my rambling is that my fear is completely public centered. More of the social aspect. And probably goes back to some sort of psychological issue and I'm probably not afraid of the actual action?