I wish I knew how to help. Have you thought that maybe your pain from the breakup is so severe that you are focusing on these negative thoughts about emet because it's less painful? The only thing I know to tell you is to take your courage in your hands (I KNOW you have courage - any emet that is living a fairly normal life abounds with it) & find new hobbies & activities to help you move in new directions and stop focusing on your pain & fear. Also, volunteering is a good activity, because you will be focusing on helping others, & have less time to focus on your own pain. Helping others is the best way I know of to take you out of yourself, out of your own head. Perhaps at night, when you are alone, you could listen to soothing music as you fall asleep, or read something that comforts you. Have you considered (if you work) getting a night job? That way, you are busy all night, and when you are alone & getting ready for bed during the day, your friends and/or family will be awake to give you the support you need. Whatever you do, do NOT transmute your pain into a relapse of emetophobia. If you have licked it, you are doing far better than a lot of us. DON'T allow it to come back. Comedy is another good distraction - laughter always helps. Try watching some of the comedians on Comedy Central Presents or something. Best of luck to you, and don't be reading the forums except for research or to get support like you may get by asking for it. I have had to stop reading them because they seemed to make things worse hearing that it was everywhere. I'm only here now for research purposes in order to try to get information out there to get us all some more help....there's far too little of it. I hope I've given you some options, and that everything works out well for you. I don't know if you are a religious person or not, but if so, prayer can often bring comfort, even if all you can start out doing is saying "Please, God..." over & over again until you calm down enough to formulate your prayers. You will be in mine.