Vomiting can be a good thing, it does save lives especially in people who are intoxicated and get certain nasty varieties of food poisoning. You have to remember that it is our fear that leads to the belief that vomiting is a bad thing. I understand you are going through a bad time at the moment, but once you come out of the other side you will be a stronger person from the experience. You have a lot to offer this world, so forget what has happened tonight and this weekend go and treat yourself to something you have always wanted to do and make yourself realise that life is there for enjoying and this phobia is only a small part of bigger picture. Hope you feel better soon and if you feel like you need support, remember we are only a keyboard click away