Emet is a b***h!!

[claire43]

Ive been coming on this site for a few years now & have been cursed with this phobia for decades but just looking at the new posts today has filled me with so many different emotions. Reading how this fear affects all our lives on a daily basis makes me sad, angry & hopeless. Everything we eat, everything we do, everything we feel or think we feel, everytime we go into panic mode cos we've heard of a sv around our area aagghh just every bloody thing. A lot of us seem to just get through a day at a time. Personally I think almost every day if this will be the day 'it' happens. Hardly a day goes by when I dont say to someone how sick I feel, cos I genuinely do. Just wanted to rant really. Anyone else feel like me?

[Puddin1976]

Yup xx sucks don't it

[jkl81]

That having been said, I've seen a lot of people here improve drastically over the 5 years or so I've been here. Personally I have my ups and downs. I've been almost normal sometimes and crippled with fear at others. I'm thankful that I've made it as far in life as I have, and I try to enjoy every day as best as I can. I'm amazed at what people here have been able to do, like you Claire43. From your other posts I know you've raised a daughter well, and haven't passed emet along to her, you're able to manage your life....you're doing well for yourself, even if it doesn't seem like it sometimes. I do know what you mean though about this phobia, it feels like you don't ever feel quite right. I'm kind of of the opinion that if it weren't this it would be something else. No one's life is perfect. Even as regards the anxiety, I feel like if I were to somehow beat the emet, the anxious feelings would pop up somewhere else.

[Rls1994]

Oh yes, Claire! I'm exactly the same way. Everyday is a constant struggle and battle to get through as like you, I feel n* daily and wondering when 'it' is going to happen. I'm better than I was last year, but only ever so slightly..

[claire43]

jkl81:- Yeah I agree that Ive seen a lot of people improve & I hope that the people who used to come on here regularly but dont anymore are in such a good place that they dont need to. And thank you for saying how I managed to raise my daughter without passing on my phobia, that is something Im very grateful for. You also summed up exactly how it feels when you said 'it feels like you dont ever feel right'. To the people I work with & nearly everybody else who knows me I come across as confident & clear headed yet inside Im a mess.

[claire43]

Oh yes, Claire! I'm exactly the same way. Everyday is a constant struggle and battle to get through as like you, I feel n* daily and wondering when 'it' is going to happen. I'm better than I was last year, but only ever so slightly..

I to have periods when things get better and Im so grateful for those times, however at the moment Im going through a tricky time not helped by the fact that I had d* a couple of times last night something I never get & Im kinda freaking out that Ive got fp or a sv.