I personally think it could be a bad idea. It probably depends how bad your phobia is, mine is pretty severe and any videos I've seen by accident on YouTube have been pretty traumatizing. I saw one pretty awful video about 2 years ago and I couldn't eat for days and have flashbacks still at least every week. I can't really touch or eat anything the colour of the... You know... Anyway, if your phobia is really bad, you could always start of with drawings or cartoons, which is what I'm going to try.