You're not weak. You're strong, and probably stronger than you need to be. I'm sure many here with kids can relate to what you are saying. My phobia has stopped me from having kids at all, because I'm too scared to deal with morning sickness, labor, delivery, then the kid itself and the V that comes with that. Now let me tell you, THAT is weak! Even though I don't have kids, I sympathize with being overwhelmed by anxiety caused by the phobia. It's a constant struggle. Sometimes I just tell myself to STOP, it really is all my head and there's nothing wrong physically, no emergency---I don't have to be THAT person who is panicking and paralyzed with fear. I can be someone else, someone without anxiety. It doesn't always work, but being miserable really sucks so I made a conscious decision to try to work through it. I can't even imagine how hard it is taking care of a baby. I admire anyone who does it.