Quote Originally Posted by kam142 View Post
God I'm sorry but this post really really freaks me out! I absolutely couldn't handle the severity of this bug or the possibility of passing out from it. I hope your doing ok?
Kam142 it was definitely a very trying and tiring time for me but, strangely enough, it was totally worth it. I'm not saying I'm totally out of the woods with my fear, but I'm definitely on the right track to recovery now. When my boyfriend first started getting sick I freaked out and demanded that he go home that very instant and was not allowed to stay there or come near me...my mom came in the room and set me straight. She said, "Look at him!! Do you think he can help how he is feeling?! Don't you think he feels pretty helpless himself with how sick he is?! How dare you treat him bad out of your own selfishness due to something he has no control over!" And I looked at him and realized she was right...and I cried. Not to be all mushy or emotional but it was the truth and I'm still hurt over how I treated him and I'm sure I've apologized over 100 times to him. He was so pale, and weak and helpless and it was unfair for me to do that to him and I suddenly was just overtaken with compassion for him. I believe it was that that helped me. He was so sick and helpless and needed me and every time he got sick I would cry because I felt so bad for him. Seriously lol. Realizing that it's something people have no control over and they are truly helpless and in need comfort and help during that time opened my eyes and is helping me overcome my fear. Love and compassion really do overcome everything and I hope my incident helps others like it helped me!