Brandnew, you sound so much like me.. I do the same thing. I'd guess that your phobia has creeped up to distract you from something (maybe the new job?) When this happens to me, I have to re-set myself. I take a low dose xanax and zofran for the nausea and go to bed, read this site or you tube some guided relaxation. Search relaxation session by Lucinda Bassett on you tube, it really helps me. Usually after I knock the panic out and get a good nights sleep, I feel so much better! By the way, I do not use the meds unless it's really bad and I can't get past it on my own, if it gets to the not sleeping and trembling all over I know I have to take the meds and go to bed. You'll feel better after you get past whatever is bothering you.. You can get past this and you will, best wishes!