Morning friends..... Well I am here feeling like a big piece of garbage but I'm here.... Here's the update.... I am gonna be ok... I now will replace my antiemetics to heart medication daily, but I will b ok and with time the havoc I wreaked on my body can be reversed. I am luck that I went for my exam because I really could have killed myself.... I have none of my crutch drugs (well my fiancé has them for the next step of the process). I was kinda loopy for the last 2 days to keep my anxiety at bay but I am ok so far today so NO loopy meds today... I am being discharged tomorrow and going right to a hypnotherapist who at the end of 90 minutes said I will b ready to flush my pills down the toilet.... I am skeptical. 3 sessions and he says I will be cured.... I'm scared of the possibility of not being scared... But on a good note if it does work I will pass on his name to all of you sine he does skype and telehypnosis.... And I guess it's not that expensive but what I think is costly and my fiancé thinks is costly are 2 different things... So anyways I just wanted to let you all know I'm ok... I would like to give some of you my # but I'm not too comfortable with putting it on here.... I will update tomorrow after my session.... Thanks for all the prayers!!!