MY SISTER IS SICK. I NEED HELP. I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE, I NEED TO ESCAPE.
I have never felt so scared in fucking ages. I'm shaking so much.. so much.. it hasn't been a year, and she's sick again. I don't think i can do this again. I need to get out of here... but i can't leave my room. Since i've been getting better, we've been hanging out more, more contact. and this is what i fucking get. I know talking about it won't make her stop getting sick, i just... oh for god;s sake i don't even know anymore.
She literally first v* 10 mins ago. I'm just praaaying she doesnt get sick again. I knew she wasn't herself about an hour ago, and she said she was having a panic attack (I didn't believe it.. I had that sinking feeling that she was going to get sick.) I'm in my room, knowing i won't get any sleep, as it is nearly midnight.
And she got sick again. Get me out of here. I just can't explain how hopeless... useless.. scared.. traumatised and more scared I am now.
I caved in. I came back on this forum. I truly thought my phobia was going away. Funny thing.. I was thinking a loot this morning about how lucky I've been. She hasn''t got sick in nearly a year. I was finally believing that with her not getting sick every friggen two two months, i could finally beat this. So numb.
Please someone make me feel better.