I haven't been on this website in months because I've begun to calm down. It feels like sort of a victory to me. And recently I've been able to have this sort of clarity where if I do feel sick, I just say to myself, "If I am sick, then I may or may not throw up and I will feel better later and it won't be the worst thing in the world to throw up." It's been fantastic to be able to think of that if I do feel awful.