Wow thank you so much! This makes me feel a lot more normal. He still means the world to me whether or not we are getting intimate so I guess this will just have to be something to get used to. I just feel bad because I know he wants it, but he still seems understanding when I say I can't. Seriously, thank you so much. I'm glad I'm not the only one!
If anyone else sees this, still feel free to give an opinion! Thanks!
edit: and I feel like in this relationship I may "need more" because this does feel much more serious than anything I've ever experienced. So thank you for reminding me that doing it isn't the most important thing!