I would look for a non-parying friend, or at least someone you know will drink responsibly and not to the point of v*. I used to be the same way about going to football games- my family sre season ticket holders, but I could never handle going because I would always see people drink too much and get sick. It was AWFUL. However, I started going to a few games with my husband recently and it has been not so bad. It helps that he tells me he really enjoys having me there, and so I feel good about doing something nice for him, and I really do like football. I'm not at the point that I can attend a tailgate yet (or even walk through tailgate lots on the way to game) but I'm glad to have made some little progress. Don't force yourself into a situation you aren't ready for, and one that probably won't be worth it anyway. Think about what you really want and the people who you really want to spend your time with. I hope you can work out something, and if nothing else, know that you are not alone! :-)