I used to post frequently on this forum many years ago, when my emetophobia was worse. I've always been afraid of v* but it never controlled my life until about 10 yrs ago and that's when I found this forum. I've always believed that it worsened due to anxiety and stress in my life. I was having financial problems and other stressful things going on in my life. Then over a few years time the stress dissipated and my emetophobia, while it never went away, mellowed out and I took back control. Every once in a while I would still get a panic attack over fear of getting sick but overall I was doing well.
Some of the things I did to cope were to get active with hobbies (crafting and baking) and physical fitness (martial arts, running, working out). I also started a blog about emetophobia and anytime I was feeling panicky or just inspired, I would post in it. And it worked for me. That is until now. During the past month I've had 3 panic attacks. I'm now facing similar financial stress and the stress of aging relatives, regrets and other anxiety driven emotions which I believe is bringing the emetophobia on again.
I tried therapy last summer and I found it overpriced and it didn't help me much. Working out once a week at the gym with a personal trainer actually made me feel better than the therapist and those session are much cheaper. But lately my training sessions are leaving me feeling queasy and this evening right after my training session my stomach started feeling bad. To top it off, my sister, who hasn't v* in 18 years, got hit with stomach flu last week and so did her entire family. Now I'm extremely paranoid I'm going to get it too. I was so panicky that I was sitting outside on my balcony in freezing cold temperatures to try to calm down before writing this.
As I write this, I'm sucking on a piece of ginger and starting to feel a little better. But I'm just so upset with myself that emetophobia is coming back. My doctor recommended yoga but I'm so unbalanced (physically and mentally) that I'm intimidated to take even the beginner classes.
Thanks for letting me rant.