Oh Dxxr, I'm so sorry to hear about this and equally sorry that I've got to it too late to be able to be of any real support

First things first, you shouldn't be disappointed about having a panic attack, even the best of us still have our bad days. You're only on your second cbt appointment, in time I'm sure you'll start to feel better, having less and less bad days, but look at it this way. You said yourself that you've been doing a lot better these past few days, now that is an awesome achievement, because that proves that you CAN do it! You're capable of getting better and you're on the right track

I know it feels like you've slipped right back to square one, I've been there myself, feeling crushed and disappointed. But you know something else, you're talking to a therapist about your emet and that is already doing better than I am. I can't bring myself to talk to my therapist about it out of fear that talking about illness (off the site) might make me ill. As an outsider looking in, I can see how much progress you're making, and how far you've come and it's so clear to me that you're well on the road to getting better, even if it doesn't feel like it, just remember that we believe in you, and we're all here to support you through those bad days and congratulate you on the good.

I hope your cbt session went well and that you're feeling a bit better about things after it, if you stop by, please do let us know!