Please please help

[LittleFlo]

I am suffering terrible anxiety n* (I think). To cut a long story short, as some of you know last week my violent ex got not guilty in court, I've one through hell and back. Since the verdict I have barely slept. Last night I got drunk (stupidly) and very very distressed about what has happened. I didn't feel particularly hungover today, just tired, and I've eaten normally. However I have felt on edge all day. Tonight I feel very very very anxious. I am exhausted, the alcohol hasn't helped (plus I always panic about v* from a hangover not that I ever have and I would have thought I would have done by now today given it's been 24 hours), and I just feel so so so scared. I am having flashbacks of my ex. Just can't deal with the knots in my stomach and the need to clear my throat. I know I need to sleep but I can't wind down and I worry about waking up in a panicked state of n* again. Please help, I can't stop shaking. Thank you very much in advance.

P.S. Hoping Syrup is online if you are? You get it perfectly x

[canonguy]

that's awful. i'm so sorry the bastard got away with it. but you are strong and once you deal with the past and let time heal you will be much better. anxiety n* is bad but it's awesome that you are able to recognize what it is. i hope you are feeling better now

[LittleFlo]

Thank you, yes I do feel better after some sleep. It's just the anxiety n* is relentless, I can't eat, I shake, I pace. I don't know what will work that will help me calm down except if I can get to sleep.